i went on the computer and opened up firefox internet browser

i minimized it at least 12 times

i stared at the screen for a good 15 mins

i checked my email

no new mail for three days

i felt like listening to music

i typed ‘ hunger ,blood, die’ into the google search

a bunch of shitty ‘ metal band’ lyrics showed up

i listened to some ‘grizzly bear’ until my head phones broke

i turned off the ‘grizzly bear’ video

i left the ‘ computer lab’

i speed jogged for 5 mins outside

but i remembered that i had no where to go

i bought some ‘iced coffee’ at some corner store, near where i live

it was made from organic coffee beans imported from ‘peru’

i put some honey in it and drank it down fast until i felt ‘bloated’

i threw my cup into  a ‘trash can’ but i changed my mind

i put my hand into the trash can and picked up my used coffee cup

i walked about 20 meters and threw the used coffee cup on the ground

i felt ‘cold’ so i walked back to my ‘room’

i could hear people talking in the hallways

i tried not to look sad or happy

i just counted tiles as i walked to my ‘room’

i was going to watch ‘ the news’

but felt bored of life and i had an intense desire to sleep

i crawled into my bed and looked at my walls for 2 hours

i felt bored of trying to fall asleep

i picked up my broken ‘ lap top’ and tried to fix it

after 45 mins of trying to fix the lap top, the lap top was still broken

i picked up a book that i found in a park a few days ago

the book was a non-fiction book about european investment in china

i read about 40 pages

reading the book made me feel bored

i still have no stance on european investment in china

i took my lighter out of my pocket

the lighter is bright green

with my lighter i set some pages on fire of the non-fiction book

i threw the burning book onto the tile floor

i watched it burn with an intense look on my face

i did not  want my ‘ other’ stuff to burn

so i poured a bottle of ‘ bottled water’ onto the burning book

the fire burned out and there was black sludge water all over my tile floor

i felt a need to clean up the mess before i could move on to do more          ‘ productive’  things

i was about half way of cleaning of the sludge water

when i felt an extreme feeling of panic

i jumped into bed and tried to sleep

i looked at the clock , it said 9:34 pm

i remember when i checked my email , it was 12:25

i climbed out of bed and sat down at my ‘ work desk’

i put a sticky note on the left side of the desk that said ‘ work desk’

i honestly have never done any actual work on the desk

i probably only have done a good 40 – 50 mins of ‘ actual work ‘ in my life

i pulled out a fresh piece of paper

i drew a dog walking with a slight limp

i laughed and quickly threw away the paper

i jumped back into bed and sang some lyrics to a song

not sure what the song was

feels like i learned that song for ‘ earth day’ in  the 5th grade

i thoguht about some potential ‘ romantic interests’ for a while

but i was too disaffected, tired  and depressed to call or talk to anybody

i had ‘ extra money’ to buy some food

but  i felt too detached to go out and buy some food

i ate a handful of cereal and ‘ feel asleep’